Struggling

Oh, do I struggle.

I struggle with compliments, difficult people, challenging environments. My least favorite is figuring out and fixing shitty situations I’ve put myself in from something I did previously. I’ve tried to live in the background and draw little to no attention to where I am.

I’ve come up with a couple of ways to navigate through uncomfortable scenarios with flashy phrases and tricks picked up over the years. Always testing new things to gauge a reaction for notes. It’s exhausting. Figuring out how I fit in to learn how not to.

Hmph. Interesting.